It’s 6:10 in the morning and I’m just starting to write because I found a game and played it for hours. I think I have a tendency to be addicted. I think it’s because I’m idle, because it’s good to get away from the world and dive into a game. Dozens of memories I don’t want to remember keep clouding my mind.I don’t have the power to find a solution to this, unfortunately, so I’m looking for a hole to escape. When I sit and think about it, everything is very strange. Think about it, there is no technological equipment. What can you do during the day? Almost nothing. Strange but it is. Technology is our everything. Even if we don’t realize it. It is a great blessing and we should appreciate it.

Anyway, this is not the topic. I want to talk about the turban. Sometimes when I dress myself I sometimes wear a turban (with a wig of course). It feels very strange because the moment I put the turban on I can only imagine myself as a housewife. I have thought about the reasons for this and there are a few reasons I found.

The first one is the figure that comes to your mind when you think of a woman in the geography you live in; in the Middle East, a woman is generally a figure who has no knowledge about most subjects, whose only job is to raise children and whose freedom is restricted. In Scandinavian countries, in most European countries and in the United States, the opposite is the case. When this is the case, you can’t help but be afraid. If I lived in countries like Norway, I don’t think I would even know what that feeling is. It’s just luck.

Second, living conditions. Imagine a lamborghini at your doorstep. I think you would feel the same way, wouldn’t you? If you are living a difficult life economically, you feel dependent on everybody. As if you cannot use your own mind. If you have that feeling, you’ve gone through that dangerous door that leads to the bottom. I don’t even know how to fight it, I just live.

After about 7 months I read this post again and I certainly didn’t understand what I was trying to say. 😁😁 But I won’t erase, this must be a moment. 😂[Added on 3 August 2025]