It’s 2.20 a.m. I’m at the bottom of unhappiness. I don’t know what to do, even though a few hours ago I was happy but I didn’t even know why I was happy. Even though it’s been a very short time, suddenly depression has set in. It’s very difficult to fight it. Because I know the cause of unhappiness and the solution is very difficult.

MONEY ? The cause of many of my problems

FREEDOM ? I am not free

LIFE ? Disgusting progress

FUTURE ? Should I be worried?

BE A WOMAN ? Having to live in a gender you don’t feel. It’s worse than dying.

How can all these problems be solved? Tell me. Is it possible? How can I get out of this hell? I don’t know.

What I can do is share videos and communicate with you by blogging and writing my feelings. Will it work? Can I reach my dreams through this? I’m not sure. I hope for a miracle.

Of course I want to write longer, but I can’t focus and frankly I don’t want to write pages and pages because I don’t have an audience. Because why should someone who doesn’t know me spend so much time?

I also need my life to be meaningful before I can write longer and more meaningful articles.