I took a 19-day break from blogging. I needed to rest and think for a while. Moreover, I made some small changes in my social media plans. Before making these changes, I decided to go further with a decision I made before. I decided to be braver about sharing my face and thoughts on my personal social media accounts. I realized that I cannot take a step on this path by being afraid and ashamed. I have to take a step and be sure of myself no matter what. It is quite pathetic to live a life according to someone else’s religious and political ideas. This life and this body is mine. Therefore I have to be brave.

Don’t see this as a simple decision because I have started to implement the decisions I have made and I am determined not to take a step back no matter what. When I started this blog and my social media accounts, what I thought and the steps I took were quite different and now, although only 4 months have passed, it is much different. I have learned a lot in this process. I have changed more and more with each passing day and every event I encounter. All this has ignited the courage in me. And much more importantly;

I realized that I was alone on this path. Of course I knew this and I was already feeling the lack of this, but it is sad to see the effects of this. It is necessary to accept this and continue on this path. I continue knowing this as well.

The other thing that makes this decision dangerous is that there is a law against transgender people in my country… This is a very dangerous law…

“Anyone who publicly encourages, praises or promotes attitudes and behaviors contrary to innate biological sex and public morality shall be sentenced to imprisonment from one year to three years.”

This is only one part of the law. The rest of them are much worse and if this law is passed, I will be convicted for what I have done on social media and I could be imprisoned. Can you imagine how pathetic that is?

I am afraid but I have no choice but to be brave. I have to act bravely rather than live for someone else in fear. I don’t know what the consequences will be. I hope in my heart that something will happen, of course, but it won’t be enough. Actual progress is necessary, and this progress requires a great element of luck. Otherwise everything will lose all meaning, especially my life and my freedom. I don’t want to talk more about it because I am depressed as usual. Now I want to talk about the developments in my social media accounts.

First of all, I would like to talk about My Youtube Channel. You know that I have been making videos about Fashion History… I received a criticism that the images produced by the artificial intelligence I used in these videos did not fully reflect the period I was describing. Then I decided to investigate this and when I researched it in more detail, I realized that the artificial intelligence was quite unsuccessful in this regard. So when I ask for a dress from a certain period, the artificial intelligence instead produces dresses that resemble the dresses of that period. This is a pretty big problem, so I took a break from sharing videos. I will only share shorts and I will continue to share videos when I am ready to make better videos.

To talk about my personal Youtube channel; I can’t find any shorts video ideas to share on my personal channel. I am very sad about this. The problem here is that I can’t find the energy to blog. I rarely blog because I am constantly depressed and I don’t want to write meaningless blogs. I need to change that. I have ideas about this too.

On my Instagram and Tiktok accounts, I now share a dress video and an “underwear” video. It’s going very well right now. Any video that is suddenly watched on social media can bring me fame. All my preparation is that when this fame comes, people will sympathize with me. I don’t know when that will happen, but it will happen.

I’ll write a separate post for Snapchat. Thank you for reading it.