When I recorded those videos, I was creating a window into my future. I wanted to see myself as the woman I truly am. I wanted to capture my emotions, my struggles, my journey—to look back one day when I had finally made it.

But then, I deleted them all.

And you know what? That was one of the best decisions I ever made for myself.

Because those videos didn’t define me. They were fragments of an unfinished story, moments frozen in time when I was still in the middle of my transformation. I didn’t want people to see me like that. I didn’t want to look back at those moments and feel regret. Being mocked, misunderstood, or hurt—I didn’t have the strength to endure that.

Deleting those videos wasn’t an act of fear. It was an act of strength. I did it to protect myself. Because sometimes, the best choice isn’t to hold onto everything, but to leave certain things behind.

What I erased today may not be the memories I need to hold onto in the future. Because what truly matters is me. My journey, my identity, my transformation. Videos, pictures, recordings—they may come and go, but I remain. And every day, I continue to build myself.

I will not be chained to my past. Instead, I will keep choosing what is best for me.