My First Flight: The Awakening of a Dream

I’m experiencing the excitement of boarding a plane for the very first time in my life. We set off for the airport in the early hours of the morning. The roads were dark, but it was the perfect moment for dreaming. Inside me, there was a sense of restlessness, curiosity… but above all, the dreams of my childhood.



When we arrived at the airport, I was met with a structure far larger than I had imagined. It felt like a city on its own. A massive place… Thousands of workers were going about their duties as we checked in our luggage and passed through two security checkpoints. Finally, we reached the gates. And there it was — a plane, right before my eyes, closer than ever. They are such enormous and magnificent machines… I was in awe.

And then suddenly, a memory hit me: I used to dream of being a pilot. Little Adriana wanted to fly through the skies. That was my childhood dream. Ah, my childhood… ah, my dreams… What happened to bring me to this point? What happened that, just before turning 23, I found myself penniless, alone, and lost? These questions echoed in my mind as I stared at the plane. I just kept thinking. There was nothing else I could do.

Then came the moment. I boarded the plane. I found my seat — by the window, luckily. I was filled with a kind of excitement I’d never felt before. My skin tingled. My leg trembled slightly. This was a brand new experience. I was still dreaming the same dream: I could’ve been a pilot. I could’ve been the one flying this plane. Life is strange like that.

I fastened my seatbelt. My heart was pounding. My whole body seemed to brace itself. The engines began to hum louder… and then it happened.

As the plane accelerated down the runway, the pressure in my chest grew. Time seemed to slow down. The world was slipping behind me as I soared toward the unknown. And then… the wheels left the ground.

In an instant, my life defied gravity for the first time. I wasn’t just flying — I was rising like a star. The wind brushed past our wings, the clouds parted for us. There was such a powerful feeling inside me that words began to lose their meaning. It was as if the dreams I had buried deep within me were finally taking flight.

I leaned my head against the window. The city below looked like a toy. Buildings, roads, cars… all reduced to tiny dots. But inside me, a universe was expanding. I had never felt so free.

Each time we passed through a cloud, my soul trembled. I watched outside for minutes, completely lost in the view. Those white, cotton-like clouds carried away my pain. The sky was on my side. And I… I was finally myself.

It was the most beautiful feeling I’ve ever had. During takeoff, my heart felt like it would burst. My soul lifted from my body. Whoever invented this machine should be called the greatest genius of all time. The sky is another world entirely. Maybe one day… I’ll be the one flying the plane — and vlogging it for my YouTube channel. Who knows?

Now I need to rest. But that feeling inside me… I’ll never forget it.


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7 responses to “My First Flight: The Awakening of a Dream”

  1. Olivia Avatar

    Hello Acelya,

    I have read some of your writings. I’m sorry, but I need to tell you the truth. From what I’ve seen, you are an extreme dreamer and you always think you’re right. You seem to hate everything – insects, birds, cars, the weather… Have you ever thought that you might be at fault? I once had a friend who had problems like yours. But she made so many mistakes that everyone started to hate her. None of us are in touch with her anymore.

    Now, regarding the issues you’re facing: In some of your writings, you talk about building your life, but it seems like you’re not taking any real steps to do that. You want to come to America. Do you have the money for it? Do you have a job that will help you stand out in the U.S.? Can you speak English like we do? If you don’t have a job in your own country, why would they hire you here? It seems like you don’t have good relationships with people, and you keep blaming others. Instead, have you tried to build better relationships with people? I don’t think you have. Communicating well with Americans is not as easy as you think. I believe you can find honest and good friends, but you’ll need to put effort into it.

    I am a teacher, about 38 years old, and I see that you and many young people don’t fully understand the purpose of life. You should always have many goals in life. Looking at life from only one perspective is blindness. Criticizing the Middle East doesn’t make you American or European. If you are dissatisfied with your country or surroundings, the only thing you need to do is learn a profession and a language that will take you out of there. Otherwise, when people find out about your situation, no one will want you. People in our country don’t want you anymore either. Russia, the UK, the U.S., and many other countries are preparing to completely ban this behavior.

    If you want to be happy, you need to accept your biological body and open new doors for yourself in different fields.

    Best regards

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    1. Açelya Güneş Avatar
      Açelya Güneş

      First of all,
      I have a deep love for flowers, insects, cars, and airplanes.
      I honestly don’t understand where you got the idea that I hate them.
      Secondly,
      I am not blind to my own flaws and mistakes.
      However, many of these shortcomings are not solely due to personal errors but also the result of the environment I live in and the pressure of people who interfere with my life.
      When I speak about these struggles, it’s not to make excuses, but to express the oppression and lack of opportunities I face.
      I also believe you have no idea about the health issues I am dealing with.
      It’s quite unfair to judge so easily without understanding the unseen burdens someone carries.
      Thirdly,
      I don’t agree with basing opinions on conspiracy theories or hearsay.
      Regarding the decisions made for trans individuals in America:
      Not every decision is entirely good or entirely bad.
      As a trans individual myself, I believe that certain limitations might be necessary for the balance of society.
      However, this does not justify violating the fundamental human rights and freedoms of trans people.
      My criticisms are not born out of blind opposition; they come from a genuine desire for a fairer and more livable world.
      Fourthly,
      When I meet the necessary conditions, I have the freedom to move to whichever country I want.
      Frankly, this is none of your concern.
      Fifthly,
      As for professional competence:
      I have worked under harsh conditions for many years.
      I have gained experience in various jobs and interacted with all kinds of people.
      Despite facing many difficulties, I kept moving forward without giving up.
      I have the resilience, responsibility, and skill set to successfully perform many tasks that may come my way.
      Lastly,
      I am doing everything I can to improve myself and build a better life.
      Yes, sometimes I fall.
      Yes, sometimes I lose hope.
      But every time, I find a reason to get back up.
      Claiming that I lack the ability to shape my future without knowing me or my life is, at best, disrespectful.
      I am someone
      who tries to carve new paths from the ashes of shattered dreams.

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  2. Olivia Avatar

    Acelya,

    I read your response. I still think you’re speaking with a tone of hatred. Your posts proved me right. You are very angry towards people. You claim to be self-critical, but you don’t even believe it yourself. Because most of your writings are in an attacking style. Nonetheless, as an educator and a mother, I am responding to you one last time because I don’t want to see young people like you lost, even if you’re from the Middle East. I can see that your thoughts on gender transition are strongly influenced by the content you see on social media. This is an extremely dangerous situation. Social media does not reflect real life. People here only share the positive, chosen moments of their lives. The visibility of individuals who have transitioned on these platforms does not mean that every aspect of their lives has turned out positively. And I still firmly say that these individuals are not respected by anyone.

    Gender transition involves irreversible biological interventions, and there is no reliable and long-term evidence in scientific data to support that this process benefits the psychological well-being of the individual. On the contrary, there has been an increase in problems such as depression, anxiety, suicidal tendencies, social isolation, body alienation, and identity confusion in the post-transition period. These issues are more severe and widespread than before the transition.

    Individuals who experience regret are not limited to children or adolescents. However, especially when transition decisions are made at a young age, before the individual has completed their developmental process, the results can be more devastating. After transitioning, young individuals experience high levels of identity confusion, depression, and social maladjustment. Many young people who are subjected to the medical process without adequate psychological evaluation and support later go through detransition. Current psychiatric analyses have shown that such practices make temporary identity explorations, which are inherent in adolescence, permanent.

    In this context, Chloe Cole, who started testosterone-suppressing treatment at the age of 13 and underwent a double mastectomy at 15, has publicly expressed regret over her transition decision and stated that she was pushed into the medical process without being psychologically ready, that her mental issues were not solved but rather deepened.

    Raine at the age of 22, after experiencing psychological collapse and identity alienation post-transition, stopped the process and said that she began to hate her body even more.

    Shape Shifter, realizing that the fundamental issue behind the transition was not gender identity but deep psychological trauma, expressed that the transition complicated rather than solved these issues and reversed the process.

    Scott Newgent, after experiencing sepsis, internal bleeding, and permanent physical damage post-transition, stated that the transition caused both physical and psychological destruction, and has made public warnings on this matter.

    The statements from these individuals show that gender transition does not turn the superficial relief, which is often the result of low self-esteem, social alienation, or traumatic experiences, into a lasting solution. On the contrary, these individuals have faced new and more serious problems such as loss of bodily integrity, mental trauma, and social tension.

    In line with this data, many European countries have taken action by significantly limiting gender transition processes, especially for children and young individuals, and making psychiatric evaluation and counseling processes mandatory. This shows that gender transition is recognized, on a governmental level, as not being beneficial but rather a high-risk and potentially harmful practice.

    In conclusion, a decision as profound as gender identity change is not only a biological and physical matter but also a process that affects the development of social identity as a whole. True self-esteem and identity development come not from external changes, but from inner acceptance and finding a solid place within society. The healthiest step for you would be to focus not only on gaining your gender identity but also on developing your entire social identity, understanding yourself, and positioning that within society correctly.

    As a teacher who has traveled to 36 countries and met many people, I can tell you that self-esteem, social identity, and inner acceptance are much more lasting and important than external changes. True happiness comes from knowing yourself and building a proper social identity.

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    1. Açelya Güneş Avatar
      Açelya Güneş

      I read what you wrote. Let me just say this:
      If I had lived my life in safe houses and clean streets like you, maybe I would also be as arrogant and condescending as you are.
      You boast about visiting 36 countries, yet you still look down on people as if that’s an accomplishment.
      Meanwhile, I had to fight for my survival every single day, while you collected stamps on your passport.
      Learning about life from social media?
      Laughable.
      I learned life from the heart of pain itself.
      In my world, you wake up with the fear of death and go to sleep not knowing if you will see the next morning.
      So don’t you dare lecture me about “real life.”
      Real life runs in my veins.
      As for your comments about gender transition — they are born out of the same arrogant ignorance.
      Taking a handful of regret stories and weaponizing them against millions of people is the hallmark of a shallow mind.
      Calling yourself a “teacher” and a “mother” does not hide the cruelty in your words.
      A real teacher listens first.
      You only judge.
      My life does not fit into your narrow little world.
      Neither my body, nor my identity, nor my soul are small enough to be trapped by the boxes in your mind.
      I am the architect of my own life.
      I need neither your approval, nor your understanding, nor your judgment.
      While you were busy preaching, I was busy surviving.
      And remember this:
      I don’t waste my time on those who can’t even try to understand me.
      Because life is far too precious to be wasted.

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    2. Açelya Güneş Avatar
      Açelya Güneş

      On Facts and Distortions
      First, let’s talk about the “scientific data” you presented to me.
      The examples you provided (Chloe Cole, Shape Shifter, Scott Newgent, etc.) may be tragic stories of certain individuals.
      Yes, there are people who regret their transition process.
      No one is denying this.
      But by showing just a handful of examples, you are ignoring the lives of millions of trans individuals.
      This approach is not scientific; it is propagandist.
      True science is shaped by long-term, independent studies with large sample groups.
      And the most comprehensive research in this field has repeatedly shown that gender transitions, when done with the proper support and under the right conditions, improve the quality of life for trans individuals, reduce suicide risk, and promote psychological healing.
      For example:
      A large-scale study published in the American Journal of Psychiatry in 2019 showed that the transition process significantly reduces suicide and depression rates.
      Studies published in the world’s most prestigious medical journals, like The Lancet, have clearly demonstrated the positive mental health effects of medical transition.
      Taking a few tragic examples you’ve chosen and making generalizations is a malicious misrepresentation.
      This is like saying, “ban cars” just because there were a few traffic accidents.
      It’s illogical and cruel.
      Furthermore, the recent restructuring of processes in some European and American countries does not aim to deny trans identities;
      rather, it aims to provide a safer, more controlled, and more informed transition process.
      Not understanding this difference is either ignorance or malice.
      In summary:
      Science speaks with data, not emotions.
      And the data clearly shows that:
      Gender transitions, when supported correctly, save lives.
      The fact that voices like yours try to discredit this does not change the truth.
      I recommend that you be more careful when speaking about people’s lives.
      Because this world is not small enough to belittle the right of others to live.

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  3. Olivia Avatar

    My Son, I promise this will be the last time I respond. Sometimes words are wasted, but there are also moments when everyone needs a helping hand.
    The group you dismissed as “just a handful of examples” actually represents a scientifically proven and deeply serious reality affecting thousands. Even a brief look at the research shows this clearly. For example:

    “Detransitioning: A Comprehensive Review” (British Journal of Clinical Psychology, 2020) – A review of 15 international studies involving 3,500 participants found detransition rates between 23% and 30%.
    Lisa Littman (2018) – In a study involving 256 young people, 60% experienced regret and identity confusion after transitioning.
    “Factors Leading to Detransition” (2021) – A U.S.-based study found regret rates between 28% and 40%. Common reasons for detransition included social pressure, misinformation, and psychological issues.
    “A Follow-Up Study of Gender Dysphoria” (2015) – A long-term follow-up with 1,000 participants reported regret rates between 19% and 24%.
    “Transitioning and Its Aftermath” (2016) – Among 600 transgender individuals, 28% expressed regret after transition.
    “The Impact of Gender Transitioning” (2017) – In a sample of 1,200 participants, 25% reported regret over time.
    “Detransition and Mental Health” (2020) – A review of over 20 international studies with 4,000 participants found post-transition regret rates between 20% and 30%.
    “Psychological and Social Effects of Gender Transition” (2021) – This meta-analysis of 15 studies with 5,000 participants showed a 32% regret rate.

    These findings make it clear: the number of people who regret gender transition is not small, and their experiences cannot be ignored.
    In addition, surgical procedures involved in transitioning carry serious physical and psychological risks:
    Permanent infertility: Hormone therapy and genital surgeries typically eliminate the ability to have biological children.
    Hormonal imbalances: Lifelong hormone use is required, which can harm the liver, heart, vascular system, kidneys, and bones.
    Nerve damage and loss of sensation: Especially common in lower genital surgeries, where severed nerves often lead to permanent numbness and sexual dysfunction.
    Urinary tract issues: Female-to-male transitions may result in chronic urinary problems; male-to-female transitions often lead to recurrent infections.
    Wound healing complications and repeated surgeries: Many individuals require second or even third surgeries due to complications.
    Psychological deterioration: When the expected emotional relief doesn’t come after transition, many experience identity confusion, anxiety, and depression.
    Social and family rejection: After transitioning, many face severe challenges in social integration, employment, and relationships, leading some to detransition out of isolation.
    These harms are not just physical — they can affect every aspect of a person’s life, with consequences that are often irreversible. There are countless cases where transition did not solve problems but opened the door to even deeper struggles.
    Finally, I would genuinely love to see you leave the Middle East behind, come to America, and build a better life as a human being. But hating your biological body is not a solution — it’s a profound problem. Finding peace with yourself will free you from many burdens. Try. Life is worth living, worth exploring.
    Goodbye.

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      Açelya Güneş

      I understand that there is no logical point in responding to you. So-called scientific studies published for propaganda purposes, which are based on far-right religious foundations, are not scientific. They are carefully selected and aimed at propaganda, using individuals who are not even transgender, and even children, as subjects of research – these are blemishes.

      Remember that in hundreds of years, in the civilization our world will reach after paying heavy costs, there will be no place for people like you who easily pass judgment on others.

      You are so pitiful that you address someone who identifies as a woman as “my son.” Even if I were a man, you couldn’t call me “my son.” And you certainly can’t say “my daughter” because I’m a woman. You have already violated the boundaries of respect given to you, crossing them with your own sense of entitlement. It’s not the sharp tone, but your disrespect for boundaries that is the issue. Do not come here again, and do not meddle in others’ business. Not everyone will respond as politely as ı have.

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