“You must believe in a decision yourself first. Otherwise, it will feel strange to you from the beginning.”
This quote isn’t mine.
It belongs to someone I met in an online game.
But I heard it at the exact moment I needed to — when I hesitated for a brief second while trying to introduce myself.
It gave me courage.

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With that courage, I introduced myself.
I spoke freely, without shame in my voice.
And we connected.

It may sound like a small moment, but for me, it was significant.
Because I need courage — and more importantly, courage that is shown without dependency.
That kind of courage might be the cornerstone of my existence.

But what does it mean to show courage without dependency?
It means being brave even when no one is there to protect you.
It means taking risks without knowing if you’ll land on your feet.
It means building a life that allows you to face whatever comes without begging for mercy.

And strangely enough, no matter what we talk about, everything seems to come back to one place:
Freedom. And the money required for it.

If you don’t have freedom — if you don’t have money — then courage often feels meaningless.
Especially in my situation.
Right now, I show courage without even fully knowing what I need to make it all work.

Writing blog posts.
Wearing wigs, doing makeup, dressing in women’s clothing.
Taking photos and sharing them online.
Doing all this without fearing people’s reactions — while dreaming of success.
Dreaming of becoming a beautiful woman.
All of that takes enormous courage for me.

> “Every step taken without knowing the outcome is courage.”
That quote is mine.
And right now, every step I take perfectly fits that definition.



So, why is courage necessary?

Because I have no other choice.
Because I want to live.
Because I want to be myself.
And in this world, to exist as your true self — you first need to be brave. 🖤