August 1, 2025
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August 2, 2025

Technically, I was supposed to start writing Weekly Update 4 yesterday, but I didn’t have much to say—so I skipped the first day.

This week, I want to try something different. It’s actually a method that’s been circling in my mind for a while now, something I’ve been questioning the reality of. They call it manifestation…

You’re supposed to think of your biggest dream, then pour all your energy into it. You have to believe it will come true—and keep telling yourself that it’s close, just around the corner. I’ll try to do this with my own dream.

> “I will become a woman. And very soon!
Then, my brand Adriana’s Wings will grow—beyond what I could ever imagine—even I will be shocked.
My blog posts will be read by millions, and my life will change.
I will take steps, with God’s help, toward everything I’ve ever dreamed of—and I will succeed.
I will leave behind everyone I’ve ever known—forever. And I will never forgive them.”



Of course, I ask for my dreams not from energy, but from God. Still, that doesn’t change the fact that humans do have energy. Some call it prayer, others talk about vibration or frequencies.
I’ve seen people achieve their desires in many different ways. Manifestation is one of them.

Maybe it’s already time for my dreams to come true. Maybe all I have to do is focus all my strength and energy on them. I don’t know—but I’m going to try.

I’ll revisit all the dreams I’ve ever had. I’ll visualize them again and pour my energy into them.
I hope something changes.

It might sound a bit dramatic, but I need a miracle.
And miracles show up in different forms for everyone.
For me, building my own life, transitioning, growing Adriana’s Wings, and moving to America would be a miracle.
And it will happen.

Maybe for someone else, these are just ordinary things.
But that doesn’t matter. What matters is what they mean to me.


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August 3, 2025

Today was uneventful until the evening.
Around 6 PM, I decided to make some changes to my social media presence. I started doing research and created a new plan with the help of AI. I even wrote a blog post about it—but I have no idea when I’ll be able to publish it.

Even if I wanted to, I can’t post it yet because I’ve run out of AI credits to generate cartoons. My subscription ends on August 8, 2025, and until it renews, I won’t have access.
As soon as it renews, I’ll generate the cartoons and publish the post.


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August 4, 2025
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August 5, 2025

I hate Istanbul.
I hate its buses, its crowds, its people, its disgusting urban planning, its traffic, its unemployment rate—I hate everything about it.

Everything.

If you’re not rich in this cursed city, your life means nothing.

I should definitely write something about this.


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August 6, 2025

I just realized tomorrow is the final day for Weekly Update 4.

These days I feel overwhelmed—questioning life. And when that happens, I usually look for excuses to escape reality.
Who wouldn’t?

Anyway, I’ve been thinking about making some changes to my website, but for now it’s just in the idea phase. I’ll look into whether it’s even possible to make it happen.

Aside from that, I’ll be posting a swimwear video on my YouTube channel today.
Until now, I’ve only posted dresses.
If swimwear and underwear content gains attention, it’ll make me really happy.


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August 7, 2025

Today I woke up to a pleasant but unexpected day. On the evening of July 6, at 8 p.m., I shared an underwear & lingerie video, and after sharing it, I went to sleep. When I woke up in the morning, I noticed that it had received 210 views, which I did not expect.

After that, I decided to keep sharing underwear and lingerie videos, but I’ll keep sharing dresses in the shorts videos because the underwear and lingerie videos aren’t getting any views in the shorts section… Even after weeks, it still says “No views”…

Other than that, it’s been a tiring week… Plus, I’m dealing with my driver’s license lessons this week, spending an average of 4 hours on the road every day, and it’s driving me crazy. I’m struggling; I have pages and pages of writing I want to do, but I don’t have the energy to write.