August 8, 2025

Sending my greetings from a new week, and unsurprisingly, there’s yet another problem…
Today’s problem is my health. Unfortunately, my stomach and intestines are in terrible shape. No matter what I eat, my stomach hurts badly, and I constantly feel discomfort in my intestines. It’s such a disgusting and disturbing feeling that I can’t even describe it. And that’s not all—yesterday, something simple happened where I had to run to catch up with something, and I realized I might not be able to run anymore. Right after running, my heart started tightening, I couldn’t breathe, and I felt dizzy… I don’t think you need to be a doctor to understand this isn’t normal. These issues are bothering me because they’re also affecting my mental health. I feel like a problematic and useless person.

Other than that, today I’ll share another Underwear & Lingerie post on my YouTube channel. The one I posted on August 6, 2025, got about 210 views and 5 likes in 12 hours. Today, I’ll post lingerie again and hope it gets views…


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August 9, 2025

Today, I just thought. I thought about the current state of my social media accounts, my website, and what I could do. I think about this almost every day, but I tend to think more on my rest days because I usually watch videos on YouTube, and some of the life advice I hear from people in those videos makes me think.
For example, I watch people who were born lucky—money, property, fame, beauty… and dozens of other blessings I can’t even list. I just watch them. Part of me says, “This is injustice, give up on fighting it,” but another part says, “Try one last time with all your strength.” I think I’ll try.


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August 10, 2025

Today, I struggled with my health problems again. My intestines are in such bad condition that I think my body only just got rid of food I ate about a week ago…
Other than that, there was an earthquake in the evening, and it was really scary. I felt sad once again about the harsh reality of the city I live in, but it was a powerless kind of sadness.
After all these years and all this effort, I’ve failed, and now I’m basically waiting for death—in a building that can’t withstand earthquakes, in a country that hasn’t taken precautions.


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August 11, 2025

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August 12, 2025

I had actually written a few lines for today, but since I was depressed, I poured all my feelings into it, and the text ended up a bit long. So I decided to publish it as a separate blog post on August 18, 2025… The title might be “I’m 23, but I already have gray hairs.”


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August 13, 2025

I’m still searching for ideas for my personal accounts, trying to find a concept that will work, but it’s quite difficult. I could use it as a page, but since I want it to be more personal, I’m looking for a more personal idea…

Lately, I’ve discovered something called “Draw with Samsung AI,” which is actually a built-in unlimited text-to-image feature on my phone. I’ve been creating super cute images with it and turning them into adorable videos to share… I’m especially hopeful about Snapchat and Pinterest…

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August 14, 2025


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