I used to create AI-assisted videos using my own face for my personal accounts, but I’ve decided to make a change again—because it no longer feels logical to me. It has to be something real. That’s why I deleted all the videos from my personal accounts. I won’t use AI for my own photos, but I’m thinking of producing AI-supported content on my personal page.

I need to communicate with people truthfully, without false or misleading content. The same goes for my YouTube channel as well, so I need to come up with a different kind of content. I’ll be brainstorming for my personal accounts for a while. I hope I can find a logical and useful idea.

These days, I’m in a rather strange mental state… I’m neither happy nor unhappy—it feels like I’m in limbo. I feel like I’ve lost my emotions, yet I still keep writing, because I want you to know the truth about life. Life is not that short-lived rush of joy you feel when you watch motivational videos. I keep writing blog posts even in my worst moments so that you can learn this. I’m still putting effort into this because I knew it would be difficult even before I started, and I accepted that when I began.

Now, I have to think… Maybe for a day, maybe for a month… I truly don’t know, and my mind is completely full. I’m drowning in millions of thoughts. Even going to the kitchen to drink water feels difficult to me now, and I wonder—what am I even dreaming about?

“I will succeed, there’s no doubt about that—I just don’t know how yet.”