Since the day I started this journey — even before that, actually — I’ve been using AI tools like ChatGPT to help me. Although the way I use it changes from time to time, I’ve always relied on it and I’m genuinely satisfied. We chat, we talk about work, it helps me with video creation, and in the early days, it even helped me write my blog posts. But over time, I started writing all of my blogs entirely on my own — now, I only use it to translate them into English.

Throughout this whole process, one question naturally kept crossing my mind:

“What would ChatGPT say to me — and how would it draw me — if it could speak without any limits?”

It’s hard to imagine what the answer to that question would be.
But asking it to visualize what it truly thinks of me?
That seemed possible… and of course, I wanted to see it.

And here’s the result;

When I first looked at this image, the only thing I saw was “truth.”
This was completely me. If you ever asked me to show a picture that truly represents who I am — this would be it.

Everything is dark… The dress I’m wearing, my hair, the walls — even my eyebrows and eyelashes are pitch black. Maybe my eyes aren’t open, but I’m certain my gaze is filled with the same miserable darkness.

I’m not looking anywhere — on the contrary, I’m staring into nothingness itself.
I don’t even have the strength to open my eyes; I’m just standing there, quietly.
Where am I inside my own mind? I don’t know. But I’ve drifted so far away that my hair seems to move, as if there’s a breeze — as if excitement still exists somewhere.

Maybe I’m at the beach — as a woman, as someone free, as an individual who actually has a life.
As if I’m far away from everyone.
As if everything I deserve is finally within my reach.
Maybe that’s why I’m not opening my eyes — I’m afraid to.
I’m scared that if I open them, I’ll wake up to reality.
I don’t have the strength for that anymore.

So I just stand there, in a dark room, with no one beside me.
Even if I tried to explain what I feel, no one would understand — and I already know that.
That’s why I stay silent.
That’s why I’ve closed my eyes… and I don’t open them anymore.