(November 2025)

I stopped posting videos on TikTok. I’m still active on Instagram, and on YouTube I only upload full videos. I’m trying Shorts too, but none of them get any views.

Is there any important progress?
No. Not really.

I’m still more or less at the same level. Of course, I keep trying new things. For example, I added a few more pages to my website and updated my homepage. I deleted some videos on TikTok, YouTube, and Instagram.

Naturally, none of this is enough. But the main problem is much bigger: nothing I do seems to work. I keep making changes, but I don’t see any improvement.

I guess luck plays a huge role — just like in every aspect of life. I spend most of my day thinking about what else I could try. Even though I constantly experiment, I don’t see any real benefit from it.

There are details I noticed too late, things I regret missing.
For example, I should have used Instagram more actively. I should have paid more attention to the content I was creating and produced much more of it.

I wrote my first blog post on November 8, 2024, and I remember starting my social media journey around the same time. It has been exactly one year, and nothing visible has changed.
That’s what hurts the most.

I’ve been creating content and writing blogs for a whole year, constantly trying new things… and yet, here I am with nothing to show for it. I failed. Admitting that hurts deeply.

This year has been extremely strange for me. Unsurprisingly, I faced difficulties everywhere I went, and all I could do was helplessly wait through them. I focused on my work — on all of this — everywhere I went. I also left behind some friendships, which I’m honestly glad about. But nothing significant happened.

A whole year… and the result?
My YouTube channel has 300 subscribers.
TikTok is a complete disaster.
And Instagram? I don’t even want to talk about it.

As for my blog, I write knowing that no one reads it. Occasionally, I get comments or emails — but they’re always insults.

I briefly spent some time on Reddit, but later deleted my account. I don’t think I need to explain why. It’s a place full of miserable people hiding behind anonymity.

Later in the year, I bought the domain acelya.blog and extended my domain + hosting for three years.

I also gave myself time. I learned — in a very painful way — how unfair and strange life can be, especially during the periods when I was working under difficult conditions.

I’ve learned a few other lessons too. For example, I had a period where I was really into astrology. But I realized I can’t spend most of my time trying to “learn the future.” So I completely cut off my interest in astrology. I’m results-oriented, and everything is simpler than it seems:
something is either black or white. You either know the future or you don’t. It’s that simple.

There’s a lot more I could say, but sometimes no matter how much you explain, the other person can never truly understand how much you’ve suffered.
So it’s healthier to keep things short.

I don’t want to write blog posts every day just for the sake of writing anymore.
I’ll only write when I feel like it.
Maybe it will take 10 days, or maybe only an hour — I don’t know.

The only thing I do know is this:
There is no light at the end of the road I’m walking.
Unless a miracle happens, everything I do will stay meaningless — and that’s true for every step we take in life.
If you fail, you’re a fool.
If you succeed, you’re a genius.

✨💔