Category: Melancholy
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I’m truly alone now.
I mentioned to you that I had made a new friend. I think that friend is no longer in my life either. Every day, I understand more clearly how difficult it is to make friends. Having a friendship where you share similar values and mutually support each other under all circumstances is truly a luxury.…
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Why am I constantly depressed? I’m trying to learn English…
I’ve realized that my writings are quite depressive. It wouldn’t be wrong to say that many people see this as exaggerated, but I’m writing the truth. I write in whatever psychological state I’m in during the day — neither more nor less. I don’t write what should be, I write what is. Mine is not…
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I have a weak mind.
This is a heavy self-criticism, at least that’s what I planned when I started writing, because I don’t know how honestly I can speak to myself. I am not in a time when I should be criticizing myself; right now, without questioning whose fault it is, I should find a way to escape the life…
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Every person succeeds only through their own efforts.
Lately, I’ve been thinking about friendships and how tightly we bind ourselves to other people. Why do we have to go for coffee with someone? Why do we feel the need to have someone to tell our problems to? Why do we ask others to validate our ideas? Why? Don’t we know how to live…
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The truth really upsets me.
Job I feel extremely useless. I’ve been looking for a job for a long time. At first, I started with the mindset that “any job will do,” but the moment I began reading the working conditions, I fell into an even deeper depression. What’s being offered isn’t humane working conditions at all — it’s nothing…
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The Winds of Fake Lives
The Winds of Fake LivesMaybe I’m not interesting because I don’t perform a fake life.Unlike celebrities and influencers, I can’t show you a life I don’t actually live.That would be wrong. Ridiculous. Disgusting.We are all human, and that’s exactly why we are fragile beings. We carry hundreds of problems—this is completely natural. As tempting as…
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Ten Days of Silence, Small Steps, and Silent Battles
🌙 Ten Days of Silence, Small Steps, and Silent Battles ❤️🔥 I hadn’t written a blog post in ten days. Honestly, I just didn’t want to repeat the same things over and over again. Depression, hopelessness, daydreaming… The classic me, and my classic depressive mood, once again took control of my life. ⚡ Session Details…
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October 1
I have a few projects in mind, one of which is, of course, “Adriana’s Wings,” and there’s another project I haven’t mentioned but is constantly on my mind. I won’t say what it’s about, but I eagerly dream of it coming to fruition. These days, I can barely feed myself, let alone work on a…
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Ending a friendship
I have completely severed ties with a friend whom I have known for a long time but with whom I occasionally argue. I no longer speak to him or care about him. Of course, this did not happen overnight;it was the result of a long period of accumulated tension… I had previously written and published…
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Should a person agree to suffer once, just to get it over with ?
There are certain moments in life that you cannot forget. It does not have to be a significant event for these moments to be unforgettable; even on an ordinary day, certain events and moments occur that make that day unforgettable. Some of the moments I can’t forget are like this—quite ordinary yet deeply impactful. The…
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My toxic friendship that I couldn’t end
There are things I want to talk about regarding friendship… I’ll explain through a specific friendship that I personally experienced and that has made me uncomfortable. A friend I’ve known since childhood—someone whose many mistakes I’ve tolerated for as long as I can remember. From time to time, we argue and speak openly to each…
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I FEEL LIKE I’M GONNA DIE.
I don’t know why, but for some time now I have had a feeling that I am going to die. I try to explain it but my words are not enough. I don’t know why I have this feeling. My eyes hurt and bleed. I also feel dizzy. It’s been happening a lot lately and…
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Needing someone else
Today I would like to talk about being dependent on an ignorant, evil, selfish and pathetic person for any reason. Being dependent on a kind-hearted person may not be so painful, but being dependent on a person with the disgusting characteristics I mentioned can lead to irreversible psychological collapse. It should be considered as a…
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Despair
Look, dear, what we’re going to talk about today is a little different. In crypto, you know, there’s leverage. You can open a long or short position up to 100 times your money, and depending on the position you open, you can make 100 times your money or lose everything in a small fall or…
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Nothing is going right
It’s 2.20 a.m. I’m at the bottom of unhappiness. I don’t know what to do, even though a few hours ago I was happy but I didn’t even know why I was happy. Even though it’s been a very short time, suddenly depression has set in. It’s very difficult to fight it. Because I know…
