Category: Açelya`s Wings🦢
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“It Feels Like I’ve Already Lost My Mind… and No One Noticed”
There are so many problems in my life, and I’m tired of pretending like they don’t exist. I no longer want to live as if I’m strong, act like I’m cheerful, or smile like everything’s okay… because nothing is. I need a touch of magic now. Maybe it’s not real… but some part of me…
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The Day I Met the Circus – A Memory from a Forgotten Childhood
I can’t recall the exact date, but I know I was in middle school. It was an experience I had never had before. I remember being filled with curiosity and anticipation. For the first time in my life, I was about to see people I’d never seen, doing things I couldn’t even imagine. I didn’t…
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After a Series Ends
April 11, 2025. 00:05~ “After a Series Ends” The date I started the series March 30, 2025. 2:55 AM. And today April 11, 2025. 00:00. When the final scene of Chilling Adventures of Sabrina froze on my screen, something inside me froze with it.It was over.And once again, I was left alone with the emptiness.…
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Caught Between Two Ends
Sometimes life feels like being trapped between two extremes. One part of me whispers that everything is over,While another part still clings to the will to live.Somewhere deep inside, there’s still a sunny day,And somewhere else, it feels like I’ve lost that sun forever. I close my eyes to reality.Because every time I open them,…
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Crossroads and Rising Hope
Lately, my life has been changing at an odd, unexpected pace.Entangled worries, moments of happiness, uncertainties…But this time, I’m not in a dark spiral—I’m standing in a glowing intersection. In just a few days, I’ll be flying for the first time.Yes—for the first time.It might seem like a regular experience to most people,But to me,…
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The Silence of the Night: A Whisper of Desperation
The Silence of the Night: A Whisper of Desperation April 6. It’s 2:49 AM.I can’t sleep. There’s something heavy in my chest, a weight I can’t seem to lift. Tonight, I sent a message to a friend who’s in a better financial situation than me.Maybe I shouldn’t have. Maybe I should’ve. I honestly don’t know.…
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On the Edge of Infinity
Lately, I’ve been dealing with an unbearable pain in my lower back.I can’t sit properly. I can’t bend without wincing.I can’t even meet my most basic personal needs without struggle.It feels like my body is no longer listening to me—Like it’s slowly giving up, just like my soul already has. I was already exhausted, already…
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“On the Edge of Despair: The Story of a Day and a Lifetime”
It was one of the last days of August 2024. I left home early in the morning for one of my daily jobs, unaware that I was about to experience one of the hardest and most emotional days of my life. This time, I was going to work at a cafe. I would spend the…
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Written from the depths of pain
It’s 2 AM.The most depressive songs echo in my ears through my headphones, and I’m holding an energy drink.But I’m not tired—I’m far beyond tired.I’m emptied out. For days now, there’s been this unbearable pain in my lower back.I can’t bend properly.I can’t sit comfortably.Even meeting my most basic needs has become a struggle.This body…
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The First Time I saw Myself
It was February 2024, I think… The first time I bought women’s clothing for myself. Two skirts, two tops. One skirt looked like something a businesswoman would wear—structured, elegant, confident. The other was red, youthful, the kind of skirt a carefree girl would wear as it twirls. Two different versions of me folded into shopping…
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Letters to a trans woman
The Letters You Sent Transgender woman : My Response from the Silence —I check my inbox every day.Some messages whisper from the darkness.Some cry out in despair.Some are wrapped in love but laced with poison. I read them all.Because this path I walk isn’t just mine—It belongs to every word written with judgment, pain, or…
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To Protect Myself
When I recorded those videos, I was creating a window into my future. I wanted to see myself as the woman I truly am. I wanted to capture my emotions, my struggles, my journey—to look back one day when I had finally made it. But then, I deleted them all. And you know what? That…
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Like a Rebirth – Transgender woman 🦋
It’s now April 5, 2025, and it’s almost 3:00 AM. In the background, I’m listening to the 4th season of “Chilling Adventures of Sabrina.” This morning, a package I was eagerly waiting for arrived. Inside, there was a long black skirt, a matching hijab blouse, and a floral bra. It wasn’t just any ordinary moment;…
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Trump’s America: A Dream Turned into a Nightmare
For years, I have nurtured a dream. A dream of moving to America, a land of opportunity, where I could find a place to be truly free. I imagined building a life for myself, starting my own business, becoming wealthy, and maybe even famous. But now, as I watch the events unfold under Trump’s leadership,…
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How Do You Know If You’re Transgender Woman ?
Inspired by My Own Journey… Self-discovery is sometimes a quiet journey. In the noise of the outside world, it starts as a small whisper inside… That whisper grows stronger over time, until it leads you to face your truth. In this post, I want to share my personal experience as a trans woman and try…
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Shaping My Writings with AI: A Step Towards the Future
Recently, the process of creating my blog posts has undergone a significant transformation. In the past, I would write everything from start to finish by myself, but now, I delegate much of the process to artificial intelligence. This shift has truly benefited me. I can now write faster and ensure that my content is more…
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Lost Behind Time
There was a time when everything felt easier. I could finish an entire season of a show in one day. I would get lost in stories, live alongside the characters, and lose track of time. Watching a movie used to take me away from reality for a while. But now? Now, I can’t even focus…
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Sudden Return to Myself: Embracing My Womanhood
Sudden Return to Myself: Embracing My Womanhood and the Power of Being Trans Today, March 30, 2025, around 03:50 AM. For over a month now, I’ve been struggling with depression. It’s been consuming me, and tears have been pulling me deeper into a void. This emotional turmoil has led me to unintentionally suppress my womanhood.…
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Dreams Crashing Against the Walls of Censorship
Closed Doors, Unsilenced Voices One morning, like any other, I opened the app. My mind was already thinking about what I wanted to share, what I wanted to express, what I wanted to show. But something was missing. Something was gone. Snapchat’s Spotlight feature was shut down for my country. A button, a line of…
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Coffe
A Life That Isn’t Mine March 30, 2025, midnight,Time feels heavy, breath grows tight,I sit at a table, staring at my cold coffee,While a storm rages inside. Beside me, a woman, my age,Sitting with her husband, embraced by life,She smiles, she speaks, she is loved,And I… I am just a shadow, fading behind the light.…
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